Wednesday, September 28, 2005:
hmmm. 14. weird. its like a stuck in the middle grade. i'm not complaining. neither am i happy. but i guess i have to accept it. i mean. i know i can do better, if i had spent more time. shouldnt have given myself excuses to sleep early, or watch tv. gahhh. wonder what would happen if i studied harder. i would actually have gotten a confirmed place. but i shant say anymore. i shant be insensitive. i'd choose to be happy. and thankful.
went to study with sam and kaye today after chinese. and dean and clement happened to be there. did a full math paper. and did some chem and geog here and there. haha. and helped with kaye's bio a little. hmmm. just did half an sbq for hist in front of the tv, ha. and i'm doing my situational now. feels like i've done quite abit today eh.? hmmm. oh well. more work to be done.
talked to amanda xie about life in st marys for her. she left mg last year to go there and she makes it seem so exciting over there, lots of stuffs to do. yet at the same time it seems so intimidating. and the saddest thing is i wont be able to blog or go on msn for the rest of my life [or year]. but i still get a laptop. hahaha. (: i'm really scared i wont adapt. i'm scared that i wont make friends. worse of all, i'm scared that i cant do well. then everything will fall apart, even if i have a route out of the traditional jc way.. i dunno la. seems so.. scary.. i dont want to leave. ):
aiyah. but then again, if i dont go, i cant stand singapore's education system anymore. ahaha. i' d probably fail my a levels la! okay. i shall be thankful for being blessed.
ladeela. i shall go back to my situational. yepp. laters.
a shout of praise.
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